And are you terrified by sadness and have you given into madness? You’re running out of places to hide cause everybody’s got a reason to justify how they’re feeling. Maybe you should open your eyes.
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning again. I’ve been trying to get down to the heart of the matter, but my will gets weak and my thoughts seem to scatter. But I think it’s about forgiveness, even if you don’t love me anymore.
Well, you’re not awake but you haven’t been sleeping, and you hate god, but you don’t believe in him. And you’re not scared, but you’ve still got your eyes closed.
No one has a perfect life and I think a lot of times people forget that. Everyone has something that they are struggling with, but the thing that separates those who push through it and those who don’t is making the choice to let the situation make you stronger. My parents aren’t divorced but that doesn’t mean I haven’t lived through hell in their home. It doesn’t mean that I’ve had the perfect example of how to love set out in front of me. But I take all the pain from that and use as fuel for the fire in my heart. When i want something I don’t let it go. When things get tough I just fight harder. Just because your parents couldn’t work it our doesn’t mean you get to use that as excuse to let relationships crumble or friendships end. When someone has had a positive impact on your life then you owe it to them and yourself to fight for that relationship, to make it a strong one, and to prove you’re not like your parents, to prove you have what it takes to love and be loved.
I lie in bed and ask myself “If I don’t wake up in the morning, will I have died happy?” If the answer is yes then I go to sleep. If
no, I think about what it is that is preventing me from being happy and then I decide that in the morning I will fix it. Is there really anything more important than being happy?